November 12th

The boy of the dreams decides to talk to me now.

I admit I miss him like hell.
Yesterday would've been our five months.
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Every since we broke up my life has been different.
He meant the world to me and he didn't even realize it.
Its amazing how things can change so easily and so fast.


My dads about to lose his job.
My moms hours have been cut.
They're doing everything to find new jobs or second ones.
But nothing seems to be working.
With the economy sucking so badly no one seems to be hiring.
It sucks.

You see my oldest sister thinks Christmas is all about presents and gifts from loved ones.
And its not.
Its about being with ones who love you and being with ones you love.
Being a family for once in a whole year.
Everyone showing they care just by being together.

I just miss summer 08'
Everything fell right into place.
School started and everything fell apart.
I started losing friends.
I got dumped.
My family is being torn apart.
I'm the only one busting my ass to keep my family together.
I seem to be the only one who cares anymore.
Hmph.

I don't know anything anymore.
I'm off to try to sleep.
<3