You

are the worst best friend I've ever had in my entire life.

Im so tired of this.

My "best friends" would all rather hang out with you and be your best friend.
What the fuck does that leave me with?
It leaves me with a shitty ass best friend I've had for five years.
Who does nothing but tear me down and make me hurt.
You wouldn't of had about half your boyfriends if it wasn't for me introducing you to them.
You like every guy I've had a thing with.
They always liked you better.
Why?
I'm not really fucking sure.
Maybe I could ask them.
No fuck that.
And guess what?
FUCKYOU.
You seriously make me wanna end my life.
Why do I stay friends with you?
Simply because you have always been there for me.
And because I know you'll never leave my side.
God I hide it so well from you.
You never know I feel so strongly towards you.
And you will continue to not know.
Just fuck it.

BOOM!
I'm dead.

Why

me?
Just goddamnit.
Fuck sleep.
Fuck dreams.
I don't need it.
I survive without it.
Even if I go clinically insane.
I can't stop shaking.
Why did I tell him he was in it?
It doesn't matter.
He doesn't care.
He will end up saying something rude I don't wanna hear.
He hates me.
Why did I tell him he was in it?
There goes 8 more.
What is wrong with me.
Goddamnit.
Fuck it.
I'm done.